Finding Me, Again

There are lots of things I want to do. 

And I would love it if we could do them together. 

But I know that you are as stubborn as I am.

And that waiting for you will only mean
I let time pass me like a fistful of sand.

I have come away, far away from you

To see if I have it me, the honest love

The truth that I see in your eyes

When you experience that moment

And live it like it has filled your heart.

When life is not just an idea 

But an experience that waits to be lived

When finding yourself is more than a dream

But a dire need, indeed, I found you

In my darkest hour to be my brightest light

Having stood together, and sharing views

Of world, wisdom and life before us

Its time for me to find if this happiness

Is from you, or really from within me

If its something I borrow from you 

Or if I too have it in me, to see, love and live

I fear that I will suck the life out of you

My borrowing nature will take away

Whatever you are, that you hold so close

And leave you tired, hungry and broken

And leave me like that plant that has sucked 

The life out of its own life giving tree

I want to laugh because its funny to me

I want to 'Wow' because its 'wow' to me

I want to sing, because its melody to me

I want to dance because its rhythm to me

I want to learn because its interesting to me

I dont want to wait for a cue

I dont want to watch your face for lines

Of expressions to tell me whether its okay 

To laugh, be serious, or cry

I want to be independent enough, 

So that I am not the only one leaning on...

I do not think that its good for me 

to live in your shadow, as I have. 

I do not think that I should be so dependent

on you that even crossing a road gives me shivers

If i dont find you by my side

I do not want to be responsible 

For the person who brings unhappiness 

Into our family. The two of us. 

I too want to have a pretty heart

A beautiful mind, and love in my eyes.

So, that one day, when you are tired,
You too can lean on me, catch a breath

Learn a song, dance some moves

And when we come together, for a kiss

Our love, glows, grows and us happy